Today I went to therapy and we talked about weight loss for me. He made the observation that I don't want people to pay attention to me. I thought about it for awhile. One of the supervisors today said that I was a "force to be reckoned with". I don't get that first of all. I'm not a force - I'm just . . . me, I guess. I don't want to be a force, I just want to do a good job and have a good reputation. It sort of freaks me out that people would pay attention to me or have me as the center of attention. Anyway, so I stay heavy to avoid people paying attention to me or something. I don't know - maybe.
I also was talking about God. God is so HUGE to me right now - He loves me and I really don't get it, but for now I'm okay with that. It's okay that I'm covered in warts and pimples and jelly rolls because He loves me in that moment, with every flaw apparent. I think about being a mom and there are some times when it is REALLY hard to love my kids. Because they've eaten my last nutter bar or whatever. But God loves me with this overwhelming amazing love that knows no bounds and has no end. I don't get it, but that's all right for today.
Well, all weight loss buddies. . . have a great weekend. Don't drink too much or eat too much. Hug your family and love on those around you. Drive carefully.
Love
Connie
3 comments:
I'm having a terrible time with sugare products. I'm trying to give it up so my mind is conjuring up anything that has sugar in it. My cravings are something else. Do you know what can be done to stop this?
Hey, where are you? We're through September, already!
Fruit will work. It's totally not what you are craving, but it will help to kill the craving.
You can also try really dark chocolate (darkest you can find) and melt it, add some Stevia (natural sweetener from Trader Joe's).
For some reason, applesauce really does the trick for me (the natural stuff, not sweetened).
If you absolutely have to have something sweet, use portion control. Find ways to trick your mind. For example, I found that the Hershey's candies that came in the box and looked like pringles, I'd eat way less of that than if I sat down with a whole hershey bar.
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